Anna has got her heart broken before. A few times, actually. The plot of her love stories is always the same one. She
meets a guy. She lets her guards down. She falls in love with the guy, slowly
but usually really, really hard. She lets the guy keep her hanging for so long.
And then it ends. Just like that, before it even starts. And then, of course,
her heart is broken.
When
it happens, it feels like there is a baby alien in her chest, ready to tear her
skin and burst, like in the movie Alien.
She doesn’t know what the alien is made of. Anger? Hatred? Sadness?
Disappointment? Regret? Sometimes the alien moves away from her chest to her
eyes. It usually changes its form into teardrops and frees itself from a cage
that is Anna’s body through her eyes. The latter one is easier for the alien;
it’s usually hard for Anna to hold her tears.
Anna
hates feeling heartbroken. She shouldn’t be worried because she knows exactly
what she has to do to avoid it: don’t fall in love.
But
can she do that? Hell, no.
It
had been a year since the last time Anna saw Ray, the last guy. She had
accepted the fact that she couldn’t be with him, that he didn’t feel the same
way, that she was only a friend for him, that she was never his girlfriend
anyway, that he wasn’t the right one for her, blah blah blah… The baby alien
had come out. She had moved on. She had convinced herself that it was better
for her to be on her own. She had promised to herself that she wouldn’t let
herself fall in love again and that she would focus on other precious things in
her life.
But
then she met Jay.
When
she first met him, she foolishly thought that things would be different with
him. He created butterflies and let them fly around in her stomach. He whispered
lovely words and sweet promises to her ears. He held her hands and made her
feel safe and serene. He embraced her when she was cold and made her feel warm.
Oh, this must be true love, she
thought.
Four
months later, the baby alien returned. Just like in the Alien movies.
Sometimes
Anna wonders why this keeps happening. Why does that crazy little thing people
call love keep coming to her and breaking her heart? She doesn’t even want it to come to her; she
doesn’t even look for it. She is perfectly fine being single and all she wants
is to be happy. “Why?” she always asks the walls of her room, but no one has
ever answered.
(I was just in the mood to write a story and happen to have something to write about, so I made this unusual blog post haha. It feels really good to turn your thoughts and feelings into a piece of writing! Hope you enjoy it!)
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